I'm back! (after a while)

Lately, I have come across many people who seem to be punishing themselves.

I see that they don't really accept themselves. They complain about suffering in life, and somehow that is how they punish themselves.

Now, I wonder if I do the same sometimes.

Even though I feel I'm love. I think I need to love myself even more. I believe I have a good, healthy self-esteem. However, when you are in love you seem to lose a part of you.

Loving nowadays is such a dangerous thing. Your mind kills you by asking so many questions. You wish you could just give in to your passion but you know from past experiences you could get deeply hurt. In some ways is like cannot afford to be hurt again, so your mind tries to protect you. YOU try to protect yourself.

I question why do I fear so much? I feel so emotional and so rational at the same time. How can I be both? ...."Is he the right man for you?" "Would I truly be happy If I was with him",

I try to justify my answers.

Then I wake up, and everything is a mess. Oh! I have to "fix it", I have to stay positive. I have to try to motivate others or at least everyone around me. Oh yes! I must be strong and portray that in such a way that I can also be perceived as sweet, nice and compassionate, but not naive.

There is beauty in this world indeed. Between what you try to be and what you are, there is beauty. Your flaws can make you beautiful if you work on them. But the most important thing is to love yourself at all times. Do not forget one cannnot give what one does not have.

Finally, I promise myself I will remind myself of how beautiful I am everyday. That If I find myself trying so hard to be what "I would like to be" I will slow down because I am just fine. I will smile more, worry less.

Love,

Elizabeth